The “why”

I have considered writing for some time, but I struggle with perfectionism. I really don’t like attention, or the scrutiny that comes with it. 

However, writing has been suggested as a a positive coping mechanism to get my feelings out. Talking about my illness is not always an option for me.

Living on high risk medications, long-term to treat chronic illness (immune suppression, and chemotherapy for life), it can be difficult to put your thoughts in order. 

Sharing those thoughts with others can be a scary, draining, and overwhelming process.

What if its too much?

What if they run away?

How do you have a talk about the possibility of dying in your mid-thirties with two teenagers to raise?

I’m still trying to figure it out…