I have considered writing for some time, but I struggle with perfectionism. I really don’t like attention, or the scrutiny that comes with it.
However, writing has been suggested as a a positive coping mechanism to get my feelings out. Talking about my illness is not always an option for me.
Living on high risk medications, long-term to treat chronic illness (immune suppression, and chemotherapy for life), it can be difficult to put your thoughts in order.
Sharing those thoughts with others can be a scary, draining, and overwhelming process.
What if its too much?
What if they run away?
How do you have a talk about the possibility of dying in your mid-thirties with two teenagers to raise?