Savoring the moment…

The holiday season is upon us, but this year seems just a little different. Our family has taken a big step back, as consumers and we are now actively considering what matters most to us, and how we can best incorporate that into our celebrations. I’m blessed with two big-hearted teens who really care, and take an active role in the world around them.

We talk about our role as consumers, and how we can use our dollars to support the brands that fit our healthy lifestyle. After they each had a turn working in the barns at the school, they began to understand its important to provide farm animals proper care, including allowing them freedom to move about, and live naturally. Since then, we’ve only purchased free-range chicken, and eggs from organic farms.

It’s okay to be #IngredientProud when you are cooking! The better the quality of your ingredients, the better the taste of the dish. For us, a big part of that pride comes from buying ethically sourced ingredients. That’s why we were so excited when our complementary Imagine Organic VoxBox with Free Range Chicken Broth, and also Super Reds Creamy Soup, arrived in time for Thanksgiving!

The stuffing we made with the Free Range Chicken Broth was epically delicious, plus it was made from high quality ingredients! Everything came from free range, organic farms, so we actually felt good about what we were serving. Try our favorite stuffing recipe by clicking the link below! It’s full of organic goodness, and can be seasoned to your family’s tastes!

Since we did not use all of the Free Range Chicken Broth in the stuffing, we turned to the Imagine website next, to try something new. I was surprised at how many amazing recipes there were to choose from, even a tasty dip for the appetizer tray! If you are not sure what to cook tonight, I guarantee you’ll find a recipe to make your tastebuds dance! My next goal is to enjoy a hot cup of Super Reds Creamy Soup with my lunch to warm away the winter blues, and pump up my immune system as cold season strikes!

What will you make with Imagine Organic Soups? If you would like to try the yummy stuffing recipe my family loves, click on the link here. Or make something uniquely you and tell us about it in the comments below! Maybe I’ll feature your family’s recipe in a future post!

From our family to yours, warmest wishes for a happy holiday season!

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Making Plans

While we are all familiar with the phrase “do not count your chickens before they hatch,” sometimes when you are always sick, you need to. Chronic illnesses are not only a physical burden, they are mentally exhausting, and emotionally draining. You cannot take a day off from chronic illness, and it leaks into every area of your life. If you stop making plans, it can feel like life is over.

This is why I make lists. I like to make lists about pretty much everything! One list is of all the places I want to visit. Another is about what helps me calm myself. I write lists for life that are more extensive than most people’s grocery lists. Then when I am stuck on bed rest, fatigued, sick, or just down in the dumps, I read my lists, add to them, or write new ones. Even lists about chores give me new goals.

I have to keep making plans, even if I do not get to finish them all at once, or at all. Making plans, lists, and plans based upon lists, is helping me live in the present. My plans helps me quell the fear that I will not have tomorrow.

Do you have a chronic illness? How do you handle fear of the future? What do you do to stay grounded in the present?

Please feel free to discuss in the comments

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Getting “Regular” Sick While Chronically Ill

I have been battling Flu Type A (even though I got my vaccine months ago), and subsequent bronchitis for the last few weeks, all while having a flare up of my autoimmune disease. Normally, I  would have had my Remicade infusion last week, and be recovering now, but since Remicade (infliximab) is used to  suppress my immune system, on top of the Imuran (azathioprine) I take daily, I had to wait (doctor’s orders) until I was recovered. 

Not having my chemotherapy infusion on time means I am typing this slowly, and painfully with one, swollen, puffy jointed index finger. My face, and skin have open ulcers, every joint in my body is painfully inflamed, I’ve got brain fog (thankful for the update button every time my mind is chasing rabbits), and my GI system is in one of the lower levels of hell. It’s only “just begun,” so I am really glad (Sick, huh?) that my infusion is today. In fact, I really wish it was this morning, it will be about 6 hours before my IV drip starts, or even later, as the pharmacy gets backed up in the afternoon, and my IV bag can’t be mixed (@ 40K +/- per dose) until I am checked in (as it is made based upon mg, per kg of body weight, which fluctuates).

I really feel like those of us who suffer from a chronic illness should get a free pass when it comes to regular illnesses! Trust me, after the last few weeks, I know that’s impossible, no matter how many hospital protocols my family follows. It just seems remarkably unfair. 

Does anyone who has a chronic illness get where I am coming from? 

Have you battled common illnesses while on immune suppression? What helped? 



Everyone I know who is chronically ill can remember the time when they knew that something was wrong, but could not put a name to it, or get effective treatment. It can be like living in limbo. 

lim•bo (noun) is “an uncertain period of awaiting a decision or resolution;” or “an intermediate state or condition.”


That is where I’ve been since October of 2013. It started with a loud whooshing in my ears when I got up, bent over, moved my head to fast, or squatted. One day I was squatted down cleaning the lower portion of the window when the whoosh, whoosh started in my ears, and then my vision went dark.

I stood up, touching the window for some frame of reference, and within 15-20 sec. it had passed. Then it started to happen more frequently. I turned my head to look for the remote control one night weeks later, and lost sight for almost a minute. I needed answers!

I scheduled a visit with my primary care office as soon as possible. When I went in and described what I was experiencing, a doctor first thought that it was due to my low blood pressure. They did a test where they took my blood pressure standing up, then after sitting, then after lying down. I was diagnosed first with a blood pressure condition called orthostatic hypotension

Basically, the thought was that my blood pressure was dropping when sitting up from lying down, and after standing up. I was urged to increase my salt intake, and drink plenty of water. I followed orders, but my vision kept blacking out in longer, and longer chunks of time. It came with dizziness, disorientation, loud whooshing in my ears, and sharp pain in my neck, and right shoulder blade. As if someone was trying to pry my shoulder blade off with a crowbar. 

My doctor was stumped, and referred me to the Duke Eye Center in February, but they could not fit me in with any neuro opthalmologist until May. My partner, a medical illustrator, happened to have a client who specialized in eye disorders. After an email to the neuro-op describing my symptoms, I was immediately added to schedule (even though there was no opening) the next week. My new doctor knew immediately what was wrong, and diagnosed papilledema in both my eyes.

Papilledema is one of the hallmarks of a little heard of condition called IH, IIH, intracranial hypertension, or pseudo tumor cerebri. This condition occurs when cerebrospinal fluid fails to drain properly, causing high pressure, which floods the space around the optic nerve, and compresses it. An MRI, MRV, and lumbar puncture to read my opening spinal pressure were the next steps to confirm my new diagnosis, and took up the better part of the next week. 

Thankfully the neuro-ophthalmologist was absolutely right, and not a moment too soon, as my black outs were lasting a few minutes now. I was immediately put on a heavy dose of Acetazolamide, a water pill, or diuretic known more commonly as Diamox, to reduce my pressure, and also hopefully prevent blindness.

This was just the beginning of my descent into chaos, a limbo full of symptoms that did not match my current diagnosis. My next referral would be to rheumatology…


The “why”

I have considered writing for some time, but I struggle with perfectionism. I really don’t like attention, or the scrutiny that comes with it. 

However, writing has been suggested as a a positive coping mechanism to get my feelings out. Talking about my illness is not always an option for me.

Living on high risk medications, long-term to treat chronic illness (immune suppression, and chemotherapy for life), it can be difficult to put your thoughts in order. 

Sharing those thoughts with others can be a scary, draining, and overwhelming process.

What if its too much?

What if they run away?

How do you have a talk about the possibility of dying in your mid-thirties with two teenagers to raise?

I’m still trying to figure it out…